welcome to the shallow nation..

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 05:13:50 GMT

I should be on VH1's Tough Love..like FOR REAL.

Anyway, Dusty is coming to visit me tomorrow for 2 days..this will be the first guest i have stay with me here in Florida.

We hit a speed bump a few days ago...and it was a really intense one, ESPECIALLY this early on in our slow progressing relationship.

We were able to overcome it, for now..but i have a strong feeling that it will rear it's ugly head again.

I'm def trying to break bad habits..but they don't go away so easily.

i want this next week 1/2 to be over with.

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 17:20:23 GMT

SO many finals and projects to finish up cuz i'm leaving the quarter a week early for Israel. Thankfully, my teachers are all being very understanding about it, and are letting me present my projects and take the tests before anyone else.

Monday i have a photoshoot for kelly, and it should come out really really cool, i'm excited for it.

Then it's one more week of finishing everything up, and the monday morning after, Dusty arrives! :)

He'll be here for 2 days, and then a day later i go to new york and 2 days after that to Tel Aviv.

Can't wait!

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 03:32:40 GMT

What a great weekend in New York. Seriously, i needed it!!

Flew in Thursday night and after having dinner with my dad, went out for drinks with Brett, who i havnt seen since i've moved. It was really cool to hang out and reminisce..we've known each other almost 5 years. I'm really starting to rate some friendships by the amount of time passed haha. Between moving around SO much, if we're still in touch and talking and great friends for the last 3+ years or so, you'll probably be in my life for a long time =)

At the bar, i ran into Tim who was DJing, who i also havnt seen in awhile, and have ALSO known for years...so that was a GREAT surprise!

Friday afternoon my dad drove me over to Dusty's, where i stayed the rest of the weekend.
Friday evening Dusty gave me 2 tix to see his show Fuerza Bruta (www.lookupnyc.com), so i invited Chrissi out, and ALOT ALOT ALOT of fun was had that night. I seriously recommend everyone to go see this show..it's amazing.

Saturday we just lounged around in bed, and then went to go eat Korean food, which was really good.
Saturday evening i met up with Ivo and his girl at Continental for drinks and then with Christine and Eric. It was really great to see those 2 as usual. We went to the lower east side for some drinks and then over to Ward 6.
At around 11:30 we sadly parted ways, and i walked back over to the theater to meet Dusty.

Him and i ended up going dancing until 5am, and i had THE BEST TIME EVER. I can't remember the last time i had so much fun in a club with just one person and was COMPLETELY sober. He is an amazing dancer, and just brought it out in me too.

Sunday we lounged around again until it was time for me to go to the airport.

All i will say, is that this guy is AMAZING and i swear, i've never met anybody like him in my entire life. I am so thankful and happy to have met him, and can't wait for his visit to Fort Lauderdale in 2 weeks. =)

That is all for now, when i know more..so will you. =)

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 20:30:54 GMT

Addiction is a tough thing to face.

Especially when you realize it's starting right at you.

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 16:57:02 GMT

I never updated on Orlando, and i really dont want to say too much. It was a FANTASTIC time. Marco and i didnt leave each other's side until he had to go play the show. We spent 14 hours together just having a blast..and have spent every single day/night texting and calling each other since. And have spent countless hours on Skype until his connection went out on the bus and we were forced to disconnect.

Although it can't go anywhere right now, it's been really nice..and i'm happy i made a new friend in him. It'll be a bit more difficult to stay in touch when he goes back to Italy, because of time change and international numbers, but he is convinced we will stay in touch. I can only hope..:)

Aside from that, i will be in new york this weekend! Very short trip. I get in thursday afternoon and leave sunday afternoon.

So, Christine, if you're reading this - let's try and plan something for Saturday night in the city!

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 21:42:26 GMT

Depression and loneliness can seriously paralyze me. In every single sense of the word.

Physically from the inside, leaving me not being able to do a single thing that needs to get done. Just sitting here, passing time, miserable and enabled.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 15:46:58 GMT

Spontaneous road trip to Orlando to hang out with and then see Lacuna Coil @ the House of Blues.

VIP + backstage + quality time with Marco :)

updates later!

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 23:29:48 GMT

My nice apt. My huge room. My walk in closet that i love so much with my clothes and shoes so neat. The beach being 15 minutes away. The nice weather.

All these material things mean ultimately NOTHING, when you don't have great friends to share it with.

And it was so nice to be in New York, and to hang out with all the great friends i have.

*sigh* - i just want things to be complete sometimes. I'll even go for 3/4 complete.

I've never been in a situation where i didnt have true friends..and i REALLY don't like it.

(HED)p.e

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 04:29:29 GMT

I went to go see them play last week with Jay. We ended up hanging out with them after, and the bassist Mark and I, almost immediately indulged into conversation.

Needless to say, he has become such a kindred spirit.

We've spoken to each other every two or three days on average since we've met for an hour or more each time.

Considering he's on tour and there is at least a 2000 mile buffer zone between us, it has really allowed us to build a friendship and focus on the mental qualities of one another and not the physical.

Now whether it remains a friendship or eventually developes into something more, Mark and i have really hit a 'soulful' connection and look forward to seeing each other soon. I have a feeling he will bring out the spiritual side of me that's been buried underneath my toxic bad habits and years of city night life.

It has seriously shown me, that i need to get out of my bad habits of acting on impulse whenever i meet someone...and build a base friendship first. It makes so much of a fucking difference!

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 20:42:12 GMT

I'll be in New York Sept 24th-Oct 2nd..if you wanna hang out, let me know.

Scratch that

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 01:03:02 GMT

After Israel in December...Costa Rica for a week.

I'll have to cut Israel about a week short..but it'll be worth the almost fully funded trip to Costa Rica. All i have to do is buy my plane ticket, which from South Florida, costs under $300.

No way am i giving up that chance.

travel plans

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 05:35:17 GMT

So here's my hopeful, but knowing me will happen, travel plans:

End of September: New york for 4-5 days.

December: Israel for 3 or 4 weeks...possibly squeeze in a weekend in Greece.

very very *hopefully*, in Spring 2009: Italy or Paris for study abroad.

was hoping to do Paris study abroad in winter of 09..but i think the deadline is coming up.

and then, banking on moving to California by summer of 09.

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 02:33:42 GMT

I would really love to know what i did in a past life to make me have such horrible luck.

I CAN NEVER SEEM TO CATCH A FUCKING BREAK. NEVER NEVER NEVER.

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 00:29:04 GMT

Please oh please let this work out.

The one thing i feel is lacking in my life.

I am happy with school and pretty much everything else..please oh please let this work out and complete what can be a circle of happiness.

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 03:32:53 GMT

Nobody has any idea how hard it is having your entire family live in a different country.

I'm only 22 and i have to resort to seeing my mom, dad, and sister once a year. With no real backbone here whatsoever.

Nevertheless, going to see them in a country that is way to painful for me to even think of visiting.

TMI

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 17:16:38 GMT

Nothing like starting the day with lots and lots of good...:D

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 19:40:27 GMT

We're ignored by the ones we adore, but ignore the ones that adore us.
We love the ones that hurt us, but hurt the ones we love.

I just wrote a post and then deleted it..so pointless.

I'll never get what i want either because it's my damn luck..or i am just way too emotionally unavailable.

I swear, i don't understand the people who go from one long term 'in love' relationship to the next a few weeks after the previous one ended.

I won't even start on the breed of guys here in South Florida.

MTV's True Life countdown

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 17:18:16 GMT

Apparently Chris and I got #4 worst love quarrel..hahaha

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 02:11:43 GMT

My heart should really come with some sort of radar..because it does back flips for all the wrong people..

hahaha

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 19:23:26 GMT

I spoke too fucking soon.

Got my curve ball.

I should have known better.
I SHOULD HAVE fucking known better.

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 23:32:14 GMT

I know i havnt posted almost ANYTHING about my life here in Florida..but i feel like i have no time!

I stay really busy by working, and going out, and meeting new people...or just hanging out and relaxing at home.

All i can say, is that this is the happiest i've been in a long time. Safe to say at least in the last year 1/2..maybe even two. And it seems like that was a long time to be unhappy.

I have a job that isn't so bad with managers that are very fair to the employees.
I'll be attending a really good school, studying something that interests me.
I've been meeting new people and new friends almost everywhere i go.
And well, the single life has been treating me really good haha.

My interest in the Israeli surfer faded really quickly. It was a few different things, really. One of them was that i felt something was really lacking, his job lacked him to be as spontaneous as i would have liked, and i felt too much pressure by feeling like his girlfriend. NEXT.

Although things are good...im still waiting for a curve ball, or for something to go wrong..with something..

Surfer boy

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 00:16:02 GMT

So, the date went really well..even a bit beyond my expectation.

We had tons to talk about and a lot in common. He has a nice studio apt in Miami Beach overlooking the intercoastal. Needless to say, time flew by.

Tonight he's coming over here.

Second date in 3 days is pretty good, no? :)

To top it off, i cleaned and organized the entire apt today and i offically start working tomorrow.

For now, Liad is a happy girl..aside from the fact that im hungry.

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 23:49:58 GMT

Going on my first date in Florida tonight..

With a surfer from Tel Aviv, nonetheless!

Going to meet him down in Miami..should be fun regardless if there is chemistry or not. Talking on the phone, it was a nice change to be interacting with someone in Hebrew about Israeli culture.

Stay tuned. :)

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 17:18:38 GMT

I promise i'll try and post some updates on my first 2 weeks in Florida...and put some pictures up on facebook.

mini update

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 17:32:35 GMT

Arrived in Florida safely.

I L.O.V.E it here. and i LOVE my apt.

I'll update more when i care enough to do so..;p

Safe to say Jersey is the furthest thing from my mind.